“Don’t Make Me Go Back, Mommy” : A Creepy Children’s Book About Satanic Ritual Abuse

“Don’t Make Me Go Back, Mommy”, is a children’s book published in 1990 written by author Doris Sanford. According to the book’s description:

“The words of the text and the objects and situations illustrated are based on months of intensive research into the nature and practice of satanic ritual abuse. Any child who has been ritually abused will recognize the validity of this story.”

The book was marketed primarily to mental health professionals, school counselors, parent organizations, and support groups. The summary on the back of the book reads:

“When five-year-old Allison’s parents begin to see a change in her behavior at home, they seek professional help for her. They find that Allison and other children have been ritually abused at a day care center. Thus begins Allison’s recovery through counseling and through her parents’ affirmations that it was not her fault, that she is precious and loved, and they will keep her safe.”

While the book was probably intended to help children recognize and identify signs of Satanic Ritual Abuse (SRA), it is nevertheless one the most terrifying children’s book ever written. The book is written in codes and contains symbols only SRA victims can recognize, which makes reading the book to non-victims a creepy and scary experience.

As stated in other articles on this site, SRA is a basic element of Monarch Mind Control. This book therefore reflects several aspects of Mind Control such the usage of drugs, of mind games, of ritual abuse, of Satanic ceremonies and so forth.

Here are some pages taken from the book.

This page refers to a “magic juice” given by the teacher, which is a code word for drugs. The image depicts caged white rabbits in a cage which represent the children themselves. The teachers (handlers) most likely hurt the rabbits to show the children what would happen if they betrayed their trust.

This creepy page mentions children being locked in. More importantly, the girl says that she “got married today”. Behind the mother we see a children’s wedding veil. Although not explicitly stated, this vignette refers to SRA victims becoming “brides of Satan” through a terrifying rituals conducted by the handlers.

On the day of Halloween (aka the day of Samhain which is believed to be a day where the veil separating us from the spirit world is at its thinnest), the teachers are dressed as a witch and a skeleton. “Becky’s birthday” will actually be an occult ritual.

Her we see Becky naked standing in the middle of a “magic circle” where a satanic ritual is about to take place. The teacher says about the circle “There is no way out because there is no end to it” which is the kind of mind freaking things handlers say to  slaves confuse and control them.

This page refers to a bunch of dreadful things associated with SRA : The handler becoming the “other mommy”, the real mother losing her “title”. More disturbingly, the text refers to the “movie star room” which is where ritual abuse is filmed by the handlers.

The child here refers again to abuse coded as “magic surgery”. The “monster” in the child probably refers to the fact that victims of SRA are assigned to demons during trauma. Notice where the child pokes the white rabbit.

Notice the dead white rabbit next to the child.

While the author of “Don’t Make Me Go Back, Mommy”, probably had good intentions, the book’s coded wording and creepy imagery is enough to traumatize a child by itself. Let’s say this wouldn’t be my first choice for a bedtime story.

That being said, every time this book – or SRA in general – are mentioned online (i.e. this BuzzFeed article or the book’s Amazon reviews) there are tons of comments insisting on the fact that SRA does not exist and that it is a myth that was propagated in the 80’s. My question is : How can one be so sure and convinced that something DOES NOT exist? Why would someone even take the time to stress the fact that something DOES NOT exist? What’s the interest behind this? Is this a case of “doth protest too much, methinks”?

Is it possible that some internet commentators are being paid to make sure that any references to SRA is fully discredited and ridiculed online? One thing is for sure, when one researches the history and the mechanisms of Mind Control, combined with the functioning of the occult elite, the existence of SRA is far from being a myth. It is a documented fact.

“In the McMartin Preschool case about 800 children were witnesses whose stories colloborated the SRA and programming that was done, but the media, and the judicial system were able to cover up the abuse and make it look on television that the abusers were the victims! It wasn’t until after the case was over and the property sold, that the tangible proof (the secret tunnels with paraphenalia) were found, and then the news media has covered that up too. The abusers will often wear masks and costumes.

Let’s say a programmer wears a Mickey Mouse outfit, and the child would remember and tell, “Mickey Mouse hurt me.” Now who is going to believe the child? The child has told the truth, but will be reprimanded for telling the truth. It doesn’t take long for a severely abused child, who has been programmed to keep silent, to learn that no one wants to hear the truth anyway.”
– Fritz Springmeier, The Illuminati Formula to Create a Mind Control Slave

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