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Holly Madison on the Playboy Mansion


06-12-2015, 01:53 AM #1
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Quote:Holly Madison considered suicide because she was so unhappy with life in the Playboy mansion.
The 35-year-old model admitted she considered drowning herself in the bathtub of the famous house because being Hugh Hefner's number one girlfriend made her so miserable.

Recalling lying in the bath in 2002, she admitted she thought: "If I just put my head under water and take a deep breath in, it would all be over... Would anyone even miss me?"

Writing in her memoir 'Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny', she added: "I just couldn't take my misery anymore. Of course my family would be devastated, but I rarely saw them enough for my absence to make a difference...

"Maybe it was the pot and the alcohol, but drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading."

And Holly felt of the 89-year-old media mogul's other six girlfriends, only her friend Bridget Marquardt would have been saddened by her death.

Of Hefner - who she described as "a man who was old enough to be my grandfather" - she wrote: "Would he even miss me? No, I was certain I was just another warm body - as we all were. 'Just another blonde,' I could hear him say."

The blonde beauty eventually decided her death would be "swept under the rug" like every other "scandal and ghost that once plagued Hugh Hefner" and decided not to go through with the plan as she wanted to be able to speak out about her experiences one day.

She said: "Thankfully the only thing greater than my need to escape was my desire to share my experience. If I sunk my head below the water and went to sleep, no one would ever know the truth."

In extracts from the book obtained by People magazine, Holly - who has two-year-old daughter Rainbow with husband Pasquale Rotella - insisted her life was not as "incredibly glamorous" as it seemed and was very different to what she had expected as an aspiring model.

She said: "Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out. But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in."
- http://www.guelphmercury.com/whatson-sto...d-suicide/
Nice to see inside information about the Playboy mansion being exposed. Brave girl though putting herself through all that instead of just resorting to suicide. Hopefully the information she provides will open people's eyes into the realities of the entertainment industry. Sad
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06-12-2015, 03:14 PM #2
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(06-12-2015, 01:53 AM)Rumble Wrote:  
Quote:Holly Madison considered suicide because she was so unhappy with life in the Playboy mansion.
The 35-year-old model admitted she considered drowning herself in the bathtub of the famous house because being Hugh Hefner's number one girlfriend made her so miserable.

Recalling lying in the bath in 2002, she admitted she thought: "If I just put my head under water and take a deep breath in, it would all be over... Would anyone even miss me?"

Writing in her memoir 'Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny', she added: "I just couldn't take my misery anymore. Of course my family would be devastated, but I rarely saw them enough for my absence to make a difference...

"Maybe it was the pot and the alcohol, but drowning myself seemed like the logical way to escape the ridiculous life I was leading."

And Holly felt of the 89-year-old media mogul's other six girlfriends, only her friend Bridget Marquardt would have been saddened by her death.

Of Hefner - who she described as "a man who was old enough to be my grandfather" - she wrote: "Would he even miss me? No, I was certain I was just another warm body - as we all were. 'Just another blonde,' I could hear him say."

The blonde beauty eventually decided her death would be "swept under the rug" like every other "scandal and ghost that once plagued Hugh Hefner" and decided not to go through with the plan as she wanted to be able to speak out about her experiences one day.

She said: "Thankfully the only thing greater than my need to escape was my desire to share my experience. If I sunk my head below the water and went to sleep, no one would ever know the truth."

In extracts from the book obtained by People magazine, Holly - who has two-year-old daughter Rainbow with husband Pasquale Rotella - insisted her life was not as "incredibly glamorous" as it seemed and was very different to what she had expected as an aspiring model.

She said: "Everyone thinks that the infamous metal gate was meant to keep people out. But I grew to feel it was meant to lock me in."
- http://www.guelphmercury.com/whatson-sto...d-suicide/
Nice to see inside information about the Playboy mansion being exposed. Brave girl though putting herself through all that instead of just resorting to suicide. Hopefully the information she provides will open people's eyes into the realities of the entertainment industry. Sad

Thanks for sharing. I have a feeling, someday, that iron gate will be busted wide open. At least, I hope so. Kendra Whats-her-Name admitted most of the girls barely knew each other and the TV show was just that, a show. Heff is notorious for keeping his girlfriends on a tight schedule and tighter leash. I do not doubt she was miserable and am really kind of surprised she is speaking out. This is information I look forward to getting my hands on as more come out.

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06-12-2015, 07:18 PM #3
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Great post! The Playboy company is one corporation that needs to be exposed from the inside out. Anytime sex workers are combined with secrecy, extortion is lurking in the shadows. I read an interview with one of Hef's exes, in which she claimed that he preferred to watch gay male porn. Too each his own, but doesn't that paint a different picture? Hef's a creep, an old creep.

06-13-2015, 03:20 AM #4
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The title of her book and her doing the Shhhh hand sign is all too telling

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06-13-2015, 06:33 AM #5
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(06-13-2015, 03:20 AM)Fitness30 Wrote:  The title of her book and her doing the Shhhh hand sign is all too telling

I was thinking about that. Also her daughters name is rainbow... isnt that some sort of occult symbol too? These symbols makes me question the credibility of this book. Huh Huh

06-13-2015, 10:36 AM #6
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(06-13-2015, 06:33 AM)Rumble Wrote:  
(06-13-2015, 03:20 AM)Fitness30 Wrote:  The title of her book and her doing the Shhhh hand sign is all too telling

I was thinking about that. Also her daughters name is rainbow... isnt that some sort of occult symbol too? These symbols makes me question the credibility of this book. Huh Huh


I have a hard time feeling more than a little empathy for Holly. She also stated that she would have done anything to get away from the trailer park she grew up in...while it's obvious H.H. is a predator that just happens to be smart enough to stay on the right side of the law, these girls aren't being forced to go. They are being woo'd by diamonds and money and cars. I would think that with her and I being the same age, at some point she heard some childhood story like, I don't know, Hansel and Gretel that imprints the dangers of creepy old people that live in a house made of 'candy'. Maybe I'm just too cynical.

06-14-2015, 11:33 AM #7
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Linda Lovelace's Ordeal has a chapter on the Playboy Mansion. It's been years since I read the book, but I remember how sinister it appeared from her POV.